gracefully grateful

Reminding myself to rest, I progressively discontinue the needless need to worry about what I cannot yet understand or able to explain intellectually. All I intend to do during times of uncertainty is to communicate with the Essence of the Universe and steadfastly stay the course of each day’s unfolding. I have to give myself full credit for my ability to value every moment and the gift of life and still able to care for myself even more gently while I let God be God and I well, I continue to be the light of the world and salt of the earth with a growing confidence that Love can continue to transform my life in ways to maintain it with integrity

Accentuating artistic ability encourages me to voluntarily intend to reach out and reaching in to continue to expressing myself in order to enhance every breath I breathe each moment- fully. I intend to let what I say reflect me inside out. Sometimes there are really not enough words or no words to help me to express my deeply felt genuine caring/loving self and so I continue to let my nonverbal animated part of me just display who I am and what my soul want to share unafraid thereby adding meaning to each person’s to also express a sense of being alive.


Dear God, you already know that I no longer pray and you already know why. When I talk with you it is okay and when you are talking with me I am a raving lunatic. Well that is okay with me now that I know that you already know all that too and chose to find ways so I can still say thank you very much for the courage to let you have the whole lot of my grievances that was weighing down and wearing out me and bodysoulspirit in ways I did not comprehend as your purpose for my stay here in heaven in earth on earth that I have been determined to create before body decompose. Much unfruitful self-talk continue to wane and wail in my brain, heart and gut as they realize that it is time to decay. My feeling is sometime perplexed as the mind makes sense of why it had been so nervous about why it had to depart from many routines that shrunk its personal development.

Introspection of hindsight that were almost eroded by the locust I call blind trust is awakening and I am so happy that my own style of gifted self expression is alive and healthy and whatever God started God is able to proceed with completing according to its intent, wants and needs and so I back off from poking Cosmos in my silly attempt to quicken its pace. I know that is more for my sake than to help God save time. I know God has a great laugh when I do that because of course nothing hurries God when it needs to slow down. So here’s to God who knows how to make me laugh at my own sullenness

Thank you again God for all the people- yes- all you assigning to help me pick me up inside out. These last few days I have been feeling like a little big person and God knows it is because I am more willingly agreeing to admit that I need to rest more and encourage my brain to not feel so impotent now that I have to coach it more accordingly to the author of reality.