more than a feeling

Celebrating my mind’s willingness to concentrate on my innermost qualities continues to transcend dwelling on the fleeting changes - changes that I choose to use to reveal my magnificence and grace

I have grown so intimately with myself and this is a very self-satisfying richness. I am also becoming quite aware of how I prevented my heart from being open to give and receive intimate intercourse. How time flies! I sit here recalling the discourse during which I approached God to express this deep need in this area of my life and give me answers about what exactly was going on in its mighty mind when it created divinely natural aliveness. For a while I sensed there was something I needed to come to terms with, something that made me very honest with myself more than feeling the need to be straight up with God. After all, I was already pretty much straight up with the God of my choosing. So I decided that whatever it is it is something that I need my heart to reveal to me. Oh, how I needed to trust the inklings of my heart when it assured me that I am love. I began thanking God for creating a period of undisturbed solitude to help me sustain personal growth. Though I did not consciously choose celibacy, my soul seem to, during this period, help God by making sure that I was content and confident that God has arranged the date with someone at the opportune time. I stopped worrying and continue to enjoy loving and celebrating my wholeness.

Decades later, here I am able to stand in front of the mirror on the wall and look into my eyes with a smile from ear to ear in a very affirmative action in honour of appreciating who I am. Add hugs and I find myself dancing with that which stares at me as representing all that I am and tadah, there’s a party in heaven and I am the star of the occasion. In a style all my own I infuse the universe with shimmering light.